Soul Essence

The soul carries both memories of pains & gifts, both wounds & medicines from lifetime to lifetime. Some of them show recurring themes in our lives, keeping us stuck in an endless loop & pattern. But at one point we will realize we have the free will to choose to reclaim our soul essence, and remember what has been forgotten.

Perhaps the purpose of our suffering is to bring us to our knees & crack our hearts wide open until the core, the deepest truth of ourselves starts to emerge. What would you do if you were brave? Who would you be if you were not hiding away? Maybe we feel small & stuck because we have not yet embodied our soul essence. Because that feels terrifying. Because then we must die to be reborn; most of the time, we become wildly, totally different. Because then we become a stranger to our ego, to people, to those who have known us before. Yet only then can we come home to ourselves, to feel at home in our skin & bodies.

What is the cost of shrinking & playing small? To me it costs my whole being, my vitality, my health, my flow, my creativity, my sensuality, my present & future if I keep resisting change & hiding away out of fear. The fears that go beyond my consciousness & memories of this lifetime. They've been trapped in my soul since when I do not know but I do not wish to relive it. They have been waiting for me to decide, (for the right moment also because I have seen the glimpses of them many times but did not really know what to do back then; simply acknowledged), to finally do something to break the chain & rewrite the story. Because I’ve remembered. I’ve remembered how it feels to truly be me & I wondered if I have ever expressed my true self, if anyone I know ever saw that.

To be loved is to be seen. Do we allow ourselves to be seen?