Dreams
The bigger your dream is, the more intense the initiation will be.
The ending season falls just in time for the end of the year. My ending, it’s always like that. I look forward to it and when it appears in front of my eyes, I welcome and embrace it as a part of nature. As one day all will return to the motherland, all things seem to utter a farewell exclamation. The beauty of disintegration.
And so, naturally, a part of me understands that the time is up. Change for me is usually a good sign, because it means that I’m evolving. But in order to scratch the shell that has enveloped me for so long, I have to accept that there are things that now have become unacceptable.
Not to destroy you or take you down, but to initiate you to the next level.
Because when the eyes are closed, especially after a long day of doubting and questioning myself, the calling from the left chest is so striking that it makes everything else lose its importance. When my ears and this body vessel can’t resist falling into the ground beneath my feet. To listen. To answer. To become one with the earth. To allow the “damp bare feet on the cold ground run in the opposite direction of the wind. Rewind the scattered pieces and release it back to the land of unbounded freedom.” I wrote to you so.
On the other side of an ending I see myself clearer, more of myself more than ever. I’m no longer interested in playing the game of pretending. Many wishful thinking now appears less appealing. I want no more. I just want to release the tight grip in my hands, “It’s okay to let go of things that are no longer in alignment, and to come back to the core nature of my being.”
If it is a true calling,
it will never stop calling.
I now can see the reasons and answers to the thousands of mischievous riddles and endless struggles that used to be.
Many “impossible” have proved themselves that “impossible” is just the way of the mind playing dirty.
I am the one who decides my capability of actualizing my dreams and visions.
The “impossible” has been waiting for me to make a decision.
So. You hold the key,